Dream A Little Dream of Me...

I woke up at 3a.m. this morning from a nightmare.  It was about my ex. I thought that I had dealt with the breakup and had moved on but obviously I really hadn't as my subconscious was apparently still processing something.  Between the time it took to get out of bed and walk downstairs to the kitchen to pour myself a glass of water I had began to think about the relationship that just ended and WHY it was still haunting me weeks after both of us had said our respect adieus. I couldn't help but wonder if he was thinking about me like this as well - I doubt it.

I recalled a poem I wrote about my dream of a loving relationship and how that poem and that dream was put into question now because of all things - I was becoming jaded.  What if there was no soul-mate wating for me out there in the great beyond? What if the person I was seeking didn't exist? Or had already been taken? What if I was destined to be alone?  Overwhelmed with questions and not alot of answers I decided to write these thoughts down come the morning, but in the meantime take my ass back to bed which is what I did.

I heard that a Blog is nothiing more than "graffiti with punctuation" so what the hell? I will continue to put my musings down on paper in the hopes that I will have enough material one day for a great novel or at least a very good compilation of short stories - you never know, we always find our lives far more fascinating than the lives of others.

My Dream


I've had a dream, since I was young
Of just how life should be,
But through the years, try as I might,
That dream eluded me.

I dreamed of a life that was filled with bliss;
I dreamed of love and sharing.
I dreamed, imagined and creatively planned
An adventure for two who were caring.

The road to today was paved with the dreams
That slowly got ground to dust.
And I've trudged that road and carried my load
And tried very hard just to adjust.

Each step made me stronger; each test made me wiser,
So on my long walk, I grew,
Till the time was right one magical night,
For the road to make room for two.

Now my brain shouts your name, and your loving reply
Makes a place for you in my heart.
Baby, it cries - so tender, so wise...
Let's make the adventure start!

Together we're blessed with a perfect match,
Something that's bright and new.
It's not too late, so let's create
A life that makes dreams come true.